Accomplishment…after all.
Sunday, February 5th, 2006I’ve been wanting to sit down and get it all out, but before I can, another bout comes along. My fear has been mounting for these days.
It causes me more stress than anything. I have been quite sad; quite frequently as of late. Been a mystery to me, why I’ve been feeling so. It mounted for nights, and I thought I was insane to be honest.
My subconscious has been getting to me as of late. I’ve been pushing it all aside, and failing to deal with what I must.
In a moment of complete overwhelming emotion, it dawned on me! For three months now, I’ve obeyed my Father’s wishes to never speak to him again. I will admit, a life without him has been stress free and lovely. But I still constantly think of him, wanting him to know I love him, but he’s too stubborn to see.
I phoned him in a frenzy, because I wanted to pour it all out. My main motive, was pointing out to him the foolish games he persists on playing. (more…)
