This blog I here dubbith!
My decision has been made about the way I am to approach my Blog from here on out. I’ve always used Poetically Poised to display my poetry, and keep together who I was. I added on a blog at some point, and then it all just faded away over the last couple of years.
Never did I really speak of my life experiences bluntly online. Every poem and blog entry was quite indirect as to what or who I was speaking of. Everything got out on a surface level. Which worked well to help me heal over the wounds I was trying to let go of. But I never confronted any experience with total truth, not outwardly anyhow. Therefor all I ever did was heal, I’ve yet to completely let go.
For me there is a relief that comes with writing down my truth, or speaking it. I choose writing because it’s what I find security in, and it’s how I easily and fluently express myself. Once I document my truth, I don’t feel a conscious or subconscious weight from it anymore.
Besides it being my own self-therapy, I’m quite proud of the experiences I’ve had. No matter what negativity it brought at the time, or hurt it may have caused. Things of displeasure can make life all-the-more pleasurable in the end. With that being said, my point of pleasure and happiness has been reached. I feel I’ve only been able to come to the place I am, by using everything as a stepping stone and not living in regret (at least not more than a few days). It’s all a matter of “perspective”!
In speaking to Sara for the first time in a year this past week, she helped me to remember all the life I lived in ‘05. It’s too much for one conversation; too much for my mind to handle without going off in four directions.
Whenever I feel driven to, I will write as much as I can about my past year. Over time I would like to go back and document all of the memories I have, because some of them are hazy even now. Memories have been sparked, and I never want to forget.
I will write quite freely, without much explanation of those I speak of. Unless, of course, I’m writing about the times I first met them. In which case I’ll share my experiences of first encounters. Otherwise, I plan to make the “Friends” sub-page (top-right column) a place to reference those I speak of. I’m taking the time to complete that today, actually.
